RE:BLOG From my previous blog site February 2015:
“Confessions of a(n) Enlightened Stepmom”
I read this and OH MAN did I relate to what Jenna felt and did! It’s unbelievable! I have sat down HUNDREDS of times to compose that very same email….and ended up just writing to vent to her and then saving it in “drafts”. I am glad that I did. As Jenna is right…at the end of the day you can never change someone’s history or the way that they perceive their life and situation, that has to come from within. Some are strong enough to look at themselves and make that realization and changes on their own. Some are not. Some will get there…..it may be months, it may be years. For others, it may never happen. The moral of the story is to live the best way that you can for YOUR family in the times that you are together. Do what is right for you. Be respectful, positive and as happy as you can be. Times are tough….but they could ALWAYS be tougher.
Posted on February 18, 2015
I consider myself pretty successful in my transition from single girl to step-mom and I’ve always had the best of intentions when it came to my husband’s ex-wife.
And yet, I’ve made some moves that seemed right at the time, but weren’t.
Here’s one of them:
I won’t get into the details for privacy’s sake, but basically, I was tired of my husband’s ex-wife supposedly pointing her finger in our direction for everything gone bad in her household, so I spoke up. Rah-rah, good for me, right??
I even did it in a way that was diplomatic. I didn’t call her names, I didn’t tell her what I thought of her or where I’d like her to shove it. I simply sent her an email giving her some really great advice.
I told her the truth; that until she took responsibility for her own life she would never be happy.
Then, thinking that I could enlighten her even further, I proceeded to explain that if she continued to blame others for her situation, she’d never have a healthy relationship and her unhappiness would continue.
All the while, I’m thinking, ‘This is great advice! These are the things her friends should be telling her!’ After all, read any book by Deepak Chopra or other spiritual leaders and you’ll find the same advice. She simply had never heard such wise words and once she did, she’d see the light. It worked for me in my life, so I’d be selfish not to share such knowledge with her. Right?
Yes, I actually believed I was being helpful.
Oh, how naïve I was.…
To put it mildly, she wasn’t “thankful” for the unsolicited advice, she wasn’t “enlightened,” and she didn’t suddenly see (what I perceived as) the error of her ways.
After a few days, I had some realizations and sent her an apologetic email. These were my thoughts:
- Each one of us is living in our own reality. Me and my husband’s reality is VERY different from hers.
- Nothing I could ever say or do would or could convince her to see the situation from our perspective.
- She’s viewing life from her own childhood experiences, life experiences, her own values, her own lessons learned. And we’re viewing them from ours.
- We cannot tell someone else what their truth is.
- Even if I was spot on with her truth, the last person she’d be receptive to hearing it from is me.
No matter how right we think we are, no matter how much we think we have life figured out, even if we’re convinced we are holding the key to happiness in our hands and want to share it with the world, it’s really only the key to OUR happiness.
So before you waste one more precious moment fretting over the other woman, realize that no matter how justified you think you are, how wronged you think you’ve been, trying to change her is something worth letting go of.
To do this we start by trying to accept that she is who she is. It doesn’t mean we have to like her, be okay with her actions, respect her as a person, or even have contact with her, it just means we say goodbye to expending our energy on her.
It means we take back our power by redirecting our energy onto ourselves, our marriage, and our family; where it belongs and where it will benefit us most.
In the end, we can either spend years fighting her, or we can let go and accept her. I’m not saying it’s an easy choice, but it’s a choice that is ours to make.
If you decide this is something you want to try, but it seems like an impossible task, start with baby steps. Take one incident where you want to react and stop yourself. Remember that you’re here because of your partner. Decide what will serve you and your family best. Check your ego at the door. Leave the house, go for a hike, laugh with a friend, do whatever it is you do to center yourself and turn your focus back on you.
And just like that, you’ve begun the process.
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